This week brought the death of classmate, Barb Kish. We both attended Haverling High School in Bath, New York. I never knew her as a friend but I remember her always being very cheery and nice. They are not sure what caused her death yet but she was very young. I am 43 and I think she was just a few years older than I.
Since the sudden and very tragic death of my brother, James, who was killed in Idaho in 2006, death has sometimes numbed me. Not that I am not compassionate and empathetic towards other's losses but I don't cry as much when I hear people I know have died. James dying really wiped me out and caused such enormous pain that not much can compare to that.
Barb's death hit me hard. I wish I had known her personally but I did not. What hit me the worst was the writings of her daughters on her Facebook page. I felt so sad for them and thought about my own girls and how my loss would effect their lives. I became overwhelmed to the point where I had bouts of crying all day and couldn't look at my girls without crying. It totally threw me off base because I had not had such intense pain in quite some time. I want so much for my girls and want to be there for them through their good times and their sad times. I want to see them graduate from high school, attend college and be happy productive adults. Isn't that what most wish for their children?
My girls have different fathers. My oldest daughter's dad and I barely speak and I can imagine if I passed, he would be difficult as far as letting her see my youngest daughter. That breaks my heart....God, if you are listening, and I am sure you are, when you decide to take me---and only you know your timing of that---please soften the hearts of my daughters' fathers and let them see how much these two young ladies love each other.
Barb, may you rest in peace and join your heavenly father on high.
She was a wonderful lady from all I have heard! Here is the link to her Facebook page -https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=584726087
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